creativity slip?

I am now, officially, a victim of the current economic climate. I have, somehow, during the last month become our family's sole wage earner (I haven't actually been paid yet but that is a secondary issue). This is a brand new experience and, I hope, a short-lived one.

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This shift in our family roles and responsibilities is likely to be seismic for several reasons:
- I am the one who gets to choose if I do paid work or not
- I am the one who can spend days dreaming up ideas and projects
- I am the one who can fill my days with endless, fruitless activity
- I am the one who can look at a pile of envelopes and see art

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Now, however, I appear to be filling my days with, firstly my project work - 3 days a week and, secondly my extra-curricular knitting/craft projects and, thirdly, it seems some (possibly paid) writing.

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This leaves approximately half an hour every seven days for daydreaming and inspiration.

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I'm going to have to be quick.

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I'm going to Paris and London at the end of this week. One for fun and one for work (and fun). I live such a country-bumpkin life these days that the excitement I feel when the possibility of train or airtravel is slightly overwhelming. I have to look at my tickets - a lot. I plan my magazine reading. I spend hours working out how much I can fit in in the time I have on pavements and where I can get to, what I can see in the shortest amount of time.

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We're taking the kids to Paris and there are so many things I want them to see. I want them to smell that Metro-smell that I associate with the city and see that amazing street washing thing they still do there and sit in a cafe with a hot-chocolate and watch the world go by. I want them to gasp in awe and wonder. I wonder if they will.

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